Monday, January 11, 2010

Conversing..

Conversing is the act of engaging in a spoken exchange of thoughts.; to talk.
Well.. I have been doing a lot of conversing lately.. Mostly with myself.

There are few people who understand what I am all about.
I am all about honesty, I am about sorting things out calmly, I am about passion, feelings.
I love talking things through, I love language.
I love debating.. is a form of conversing.. Not arguing, just exchanging ideas with a point.

I want to be able to find someone whose conversational style flows right in with mine. Like you're rambling on about whatever and they get exactly what you're trying to say; even when it does not make much sense to anyone else.

Perhaps it's the fact that I have been watching too many "chick flicks" lately. Ha... I used to dread those things but now I am fascinated by them. They explore romantic fantasies and everything turn out well in the end and the girl always get the guy, or the guy always get the girl and it's like from the first moment they set eyes on each other they know they are a perfect match. And it's like they have been having a conversation all along and they were unaware of it.

What is it about this romantic comedies that speak out to us?? Maybe is the need of romance. For me is the challenge of it. It's having found the "perfect" or so to speak person and meeting them in a perfect moment in your life, even when the moment is inopportune.

I want to find the person whom I've been conversing with all along and I did not even know it.

Hello?? Are you out there...?

Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year

And so I find myself in a new year..

I don't blog much, not because I don't have anything to say but sometimes it seems to me I have so much to say I just can't seem to find the right words to say it with.

I am just reflecting on my life, on all the new things to come, on all the unfinished plans from the past but I am moving forward and God willingly this year I will accomplish the goals I have set for myself.

They say it's good to have a memory of the past year. Well I don't really have ONE most cherished memory of 2009, I have many. I have been so blessed this past year, I can't even explain it.
I've grown so much as a person, and as a human being. I've matured as a person; as a woman.
I have learned what value I have and I know that nobody can dictate who I am, only me.

My most cherished memory would have to be tying a lose end with someone that I had been wanting to. This person was a friend to me at one point in my life and because of circumstances we had to drift apart abruptly.. We're no longer friends but we talked it out and we are civil with each other which is more than we were and it's more than I could ask for.

I thank God for an opportunity to live another second, another minute, another hour, another day, another week, another month, another YEAR.

Let me not forget that this year is better than the last; will be better than the last. This year is filled with adventures and I can't wait to dive into them.

Dear Lord, thank you for all you have given me and continue to give me. Thank you for my family who is my support through everything. Thank you for my friends who are like family and are there to make me smile when I feel low. Thank you and thank YOU.