La diferencia

Y es que la diferencia es algo hermoso.
Si fueramos iguales seria aburrido.
Por eso pertenecemos el uno al otro.
No lo dudes mas.
Se lo que hago.

I have a way to see things, and you have yours.
Baby, that's ok.
Go your own way and everything will be fine.
Go your own way but take my hand.
Hang on... Steady does it.

You're my compliment. My other half.
You can't place a round peg in a square hole.
Put you can place a round peg in a round whole.
They're different, you see.,.yet they are compliments.

Baby.., it's all about yin-yang..

I tell you today...,

I tell you today lo que siento.
Te lo digo because it's true.
Don't doubt my feelings hacia ti.

Te lo digo gritando.
Lo grito al viento.
Te lo digo en castellano.
I tell you in English.
Either way you don't understand.

Dejame decirte lo que siento.
Abre tus sentimientos,
Abre tu mente a mis pensamientos.
Abre tus pensamientos a mis ideas.
Abre tus ideas a mi soñar.
Abre tus sueños a mi realidad.
Abre tu realidad y dejame entrar.
Dejame ser parte de tu vida.
Dejame amarte como solo yo se hacerlo.

Si te digo lo que siento, no espero que lo entiendas.
Solamente deseo que lo intentes

Falta de Palabras

Muchas veces las palabras faltan.
Faltan cuando te callan.
Faltan cuando no puedes expresarte.
Faltan cuando hay sentimientos por en medio.

Muchas veces las palabras sobran.
Sobran cuando hablas de mas.
Sobran cuando no sabes expresarte.
Sobran cuando hay sentimientos de por medio.

Palabras, palabras, y mas pablabras,..
Letras sin sentido.
Letras incapacez de expresar algo profundo.a
Tratan y fallan miserablemente.

Palabras... Pablabras de mas, palabras de menos..

Two Places

Can your heart really be in two places at once?

“In love all the contradiction of existence merge themselves and are lost. Only in love are unity and duality not at variance. Love must be one and two at the same time. Only love is motion and rest in one. Our heart ever changes its place till it fin” -Rabindranath Tagore

Love must be one and two at the same time.
What does it all mean?

Is it true what they say that love never leaves you only changes? I believe it to be so... Especially when you have fallen in love hard-core.

Does anyone out there have any idea what it is like to have met that person you've always dreamed of; the person you have asked for in your prayers? But have met them with a downside.. that you met them too late??

I've been told I am that person.. the answered prayer that came too late.

It's hard being on either side especially if your feelings are strong but surprisingly enough being able to talk to that person, confess everything sigh one last time and be able to move on. To hope the despite everything that person finds happiness and see hope in a new person that brings love to you.

It's possible to change your feelings, to have to face something like this with maturity even if you're only 19.

I think I've handled it quite well.. I also think that time is nearing where I shall lose that person from my life forever. I've transcended my feelings, they're evolved but sometimes he wants to pull them back to what they were and that's not possible for me. I am through. I wish he would remain in my life, for he is special to me, not only because of the feelings he once evoked in me but also because he was someone who was willing to listen when I needed and gave me advice. He really was a friend to me. But I shall not be selfish.. Time will come.. soon I know it when we must part.. He will go back and embrace the decisions he made and I will embark on my new journey.

Remembering what was and was not, with a smile on my face because I came out a better person after having gone thought that.

To whom it may concern

Dear you,

I don't know if you recall this my thoughts seem clearer at night. Actually, I'm not sure I told you that exactly, my words to you seem but a blur now. I do remember telling you about how looking at the moon made me feel small and how it was a wonder to me; how much I loved it because it reminded me that there is beauty in the middle of the darkness.

I've been thinking about you lately. You've popped up in my dreams and I recall your face clearly as the last time you held me. I miss you dearly, but that is a fact I am not willing to accept, though I know it to be true.

I remember every single word you said to me. Everything. I keep those words, I cherish them for they are alive to me. I keep them in a box inside my heart. They are in the lost memories archives. I do not know where else they shall belong. I recall them lividly so in that sense they are not lost but I do not know where to place them. Are they loving memories? I nearly loved you, yet apparently not enough. Are they painful memoirs? They are cherished but thinking about them does bring some pain knowing that it is all gone. I think I shall retain them in the held-back thoughts. I do not like to think about them and when they do they make my body shiver and my heart lets out a sigh of what could have been and isn't.

I am coming to terms with your parting. It is hard to assimilate the fact that you are not holding someone else. I have accept that, and I shall be honest. I have let myself be held by others but you remain here still. I'm taking back to the things I used to do before you came along. However, I shall have you know I shall no longer be alone. I dread the loneliness your thoughts brings and I hate the thoughts about you that come alive amongst my loneliness.

I shan't bother you any longer. I am contemplating my choices. I got a bright future ahead of me. Away from you, and yet with you. You shall forever remain in my heart but not amidst it; not in the active part. Archived away for when I feel like recalling you you shall be there.

I wrote every single word you spoke to me in my heart. I keep them hidden so that no one can see but they are there. Ask me and I shall tell you. Or don't. I'd rather not have you poking in my thoughts and feeling and puncturing my heart any further.

Hope all is well with you. Say hi to M@#43@$ for me and tell *(n#$#n that I wish her all the very best and that she ought to treat you well.. Same goes out for you, treat her well; she deserves a good man.

That's all I had to say now, I shall be catching a plane soon. I hope you get this once I am far off. It's easy to escape when nobody is looking for you.

Take care now and God Bless,

Me

P.S You're not so great after all..

My birthday today..

Yes, happy birthday to me.. lol

So I'm turning 19 and it's not a big deal but it is another year that God has given me.

Today my family woke me up at 4am to put me the "Mañanitas" like we do every year for everyone's birthday.. I got a text at 5am from my cousin in Texas and a call from my "sister" at 7am.. good so far.. Got to shcool, one person knew.. lol

My granpa called me from Guatemala and told me how proud he was of me.. I really miss him terribly and he always knows how to make me feel just great.... I did cry a bit 'cuz I haven't seen him in 9 years.. and every birthday reminds me of that.. so yeah... love him!! He's the greatest!!

Then my ex boyfriend/close friend wished me a happy birthday and then.. well That's it pretty much... a couple ppl on Facebook.. The End..

Now my question is where are my so called close friends? best friends? obviously no where to be found... not even a myspace comment... geez I thought I deserved at least that much..

Way to make a person feel bad on their birthday.... whatever.. I was kinda expecting it.. but I wanted to be dissappointed being that I was expecting them to forget... guess I shoulda known better... anyways...

I know now.. family, and apparently my ex boyfriend?? yeah.... lol

Off to work and play some midnight pool lol..
Gonna hit some balls!!! LMAO

life is good

so.. I just finished a busy busy week at church..
Holy Week had never been so tiring for me but I think I had a blessed time...

I was at church all this week except for monday but then again I am going tomorrow so yeah..

Tuesday: rehearsal for the passion
Wednesday: setting up the stage
Thursday:decorating the stage
Friday: The Actual Via Crucis live... The passion yeah.. tiring... and then putting everything apart
Saturday: finish taking things apart and then the Easter Vigil..
Sunday: Easter Sunday.. mass.

tomorrow monday: rehearsal for the choir.. the retreat to the mountains...

I still have to plan my retreat sermon but yeah.. hopefully I'll be done by this Saturday and then I have to keep on playing my drums so I can get a lot better... hopefully...

Tomorrow I got chemistry in the morning.. well, not so early but still.. it's not all that great and then I got my test on Wednesday... Gotta take my pictures tomorrow so I can have them ready for Friday.. yeah who knows.. it;s all fun though...

SO I got the carrie underwood c.d carival ride... FINALLY.. and it has this song called "the moe boys i meet".. lmao love it and it's exactly how I feel now...

March 30, 2009

2009.. Well.. so far so good.. some unexpected changes have come about this year.. some I wanted and some I didn't but all in all I think everything happens for a reason and I believe it's for the better...


I believe I am transitioning, like always, and I think I am growing up. You know, just having a better understanding of what it is I want in life though now I am a bit confused as to what path to take. There are just some many things I would like to do and I am not sure I will be able to accomplish them all but yet, I'll try, I have always been "multi-fasetica" if that even means anything.. but yeah I am like one of those big ol' wedding cakes.. many layers.. I guess I am multi-layered.. you never know what you're gonna get with me and though some people might find that annoying, most think it's intriguing and it even is for me, I don't know what to expect from myself, I often find myself surprised at the things I can do and well, it feels good. I know what my potential is and I try not to be cocky... for those who know me and have found me to lack some humility, I would like to apologize.. I don't mean to over impose myself.

There I go again.. talking, typing, about nothing in particular.. well I am just the kind of person that sometimes need to write things down.. I got some stories actually, but I do not feel like discussing this now.. maybe later on this week? Well.. I'll keep you posted..

New year.. long time no write

So.. here I am.. not exactly inspired or anything just wanted to jot some things down here..

anyways.... life is good so far.. I seem to be attracting a lot of guys lately.. I'm not sure that's good considering I want to be single.. though some of them do interest me I don't really want to get into a relationship..

No I am not afraid of commitment it's just that I am not ready to commit to anything or anyone at this moment... I just... yeah

I guess it's the same story..
not completely over that guy.. hahaha by now I figured I never will get over him completely and I have learned to live with that.... when time is right.. I will know it and I am sure God will let me know it's right