To whom it may concern

Dear you,

I don't know if you recall this my thoughts seem clearer at night. Actually, I'm not sure I told you that exactly, my words to you seem but a blur now. I do remember telling you about how looking at the moon made me feel small and how it was a wonder to me; how much I loved it because it reminded me that there is beauty in the middle of the darkness.

I've been thinking about you lately. You've popped up in my dreams and I recall your face clearly as the last time you held me. I miss you dearly, but that is a fact I am not willing to accept, though I know it to be true.

I remember every single word you said to me. Everything. I keep those words, I cherish them for they are alive to me. I keep them in a box inside my heart. They are in the lost memories archives. I do not know where else they shall belong. I recall them lividly so in that sense they are not lost but I do not know where to place them. Are they loving memories? I nearly loved you, yet apparently not enough. Are they painful memoirs? They are cherished but thinking about them does bring some pain knowing that it is all gone. I think I shall retain them in the held-back thoughts. I do not like to think about them and when they do they make my body shiver and my heart lets out a sigh of what could have been and isn't.

I am coming to terms with your parting. It is hard to assimilate the fact that you are not holding someone else. I have accept that, and I shall be honest. I have let myself be held by others but you remain here still. I'm taking back to the things I used to do before you came along. However, I shall have you know I shall no longer be alone. I dread the loneliness your thoughts brings and I hate the thoughts about you that come alive amongst my loneliness.

I shan't bother you any longer. I am contemplating my choices. I got a bright future ahead of me. Away from you, and yet with you. You shall forever remain in my heart but not amidst it; not in the active part. Archived away for when I feel like recalling you you shall be there.

I wrote every single word you spoke to me in my heart. I keep them hidden so that no one can see but they are there. Ask me and I shall tell you. Or don't. I'd rather not have you poking in my thoughts and feeling and puncturing my heart any further.

Hope all is well with you. Say hi to M@#43@$ for me and tell *(n#$#n that I wish her all the very best and that she ought to treat you well.. Same goes out for you, treat her well; she deserves a good man.

That's all I had to say now, I shall be catching a plane soon. I hope you get this once I am far off. It's easy to escape when nobody is looking for you.

Take care now and God Bless,

Me

P.S You're not so great after all..