sad, "rainy" do to speak, day

Have you ever had one of those "Rainy" days.
Well.. today was one of them
Those days where you just want to seat around and watch t.v until your head hurts
And then.. you want to fall asleep but you can't because your head hurts??

You know... sometimes you take so much and you keep it.
You store it away for one of your black days and the funny thing is .. sometimes you don't even know it's a black day.
You start feeling inspired.. decide to wear black clothes (first sign you IGNORE) and top of it with something white to hide the black.
You meet up with a friend who recently underwent a black day and ignore it.
You get home and you lock yourself up and watch t.v. Eat something far from real food , in my case a cup of noodles, and get to t.v.

Then you start remembering the old times.. the what if's.. that "if I could I would tell you that...," the imaginary phone calls or the acted out scenes.

Sure.. sounds a bit drastic doesn't it? well... sometimes that's just the way it is and when I say "you" I really mean "I"..

Pathetic?? yes.. Weird?? maybe not so much stupid? big YES!!

but what can I do?? you .. I mean... I gotta have one of these days once in a while you know.. where I can just sti around and watch t.v to repress my feelings which honestly feel like they should be coming from an old divorced woman not from a single 18 year old..


whatever... just gotta grin and bear it